and my moment of clarity arrives

as swiftly as my concerns are dismissed.

meditate motivate mediate

this ceaseless battle

sitting seemingly callous but feeling

anger at jealousy, rage at torment

compounding 'til you're left

alone

and confused

and impatient

and passed out

on the couch at your friend's house

until

you leave your troubles

travel to the sunlit ibizan beaches

gaze at the new york city lights

rave through your despair

ecstasy of the moment

on the desolate highway side

where the stars shine unobstructed

your memories grasp... you

feel nothing

when nothing's there

feel everything,

but only when it's gone

enigmatic

but do you really know

exactly what you want, how you feel?

do you need this

"Yes."